'15 TN DT/OL Zach Stewart (UT Signee 2/4/15)

[VolsnCards5]

Since we are discussing terrible and sad things in here:

An acquaintance of mine from undergrad and his wife started yesterday morning, discovering their 2 year old son had died in the night somehow. They found him unresponsive and tried to administer CPR , and the medics tried to revive him when they arrived as well. All were unsuccessful. They don't even know what caused it.

I can't imagine the terrifyingly deep anguish. Cried yesterday and teared up even typing this now. Just awful.

That's my biggest fear in life.

May they find comfort as soon as possible

 

[volssam]

That's my biggest fear in life.

May they find comfort as soon as possible

It worries and scares me everyday that something might happen to my kids. I know I shouldn't be this way and should trust that God has a plan and has the foreknowledge to know what's best. But knowing these things and living free from the worry about it are hard for me.

My world would be shattered if something happened to my kids. Don't know if it could be repaired.

 

[StoVol]

good lord thats terrible, the love that children have for you reminds you just how vast your love can be

 

[tn4elvis]

I'm 37 years old. My dad passed away 10 days ago. We buried him a week ago today. I am a minister and I performed his funeral/burial. The world just feels stranger than normal. He battled cancer since last Christmas. He went through the chemo, radiation and surgery and was cancer free and it seemed he was recovering. Then pneumonia set it and his lungs couldn't handle it. Ten days in and it is still hard to believe.

My heart goes out to you brother.My mom didn't have cancer but got pneumonia and lasted about 3 weeks.This will be my 2nd Christmas with out her.I will pray for you and your family.

 

[titansvolsfaninga]

Since we are discussing terrible and sad things in here:

An acquaintance of mine from undergrad and his wife started yesterday morning, discovering their 2 year old son had died in the night somehow. They found him unresponsive and tried to administer CPR , and the medics tried to revive him when they arrived as well. All were unsuccessful. They don't even know what caused it.

I can't imagine the terrifyingly deep anguish. Cried yesterday and teared up even typing this now. Just awful.

I teared up just reading this. I can't imagine. My stomach is in knots just thinking about it. Prayers for that family.

 

[tn4elvis]

I teared up just reading this. I can't imagine. My stomach is in knots just thinking about it. Prayers for that family.

Ditto and amen

 

[NotoriousRPP]

As a father this is my worst fear.

 

[OGbabyaviVol]

It worries and scares me everyday that something might happen to my kids. I know I shouldn't be this way and should trust that God has a plan and has the foreknowledge to know what's best. But knowing these things and living free from the worry about it are hard for me.

My world would be shattered if something happened to my kids. Don't know if it could be repaired.

Sam, for some reason, I have thought about this a lot lately, and I worry more than I should, as I know I should fully trust God and His ways. Outside of the fear of not living the proper Christian life that's pleasing to God and spending eternity in hell, it is unequivocally my worst fear for my only child. I pray consistently for her safety and that I never have to be faced with that horrible tragedy. God is my everything, but she and her mom are next. I give my all to provide her the best life I can give her...things that I wasn't able to enjoy and do. I think I speak for all of us dads with that thought.

 

[jason3713]

Lost my dad four months ago. Still get ready to pickup the phone and call him almost every day.

 

[volssam]

Sam, for some reason, I have thought about this a lot lately, and I worry more than I should, as I know I should fully trust God and His ways. Outside of the fear of not living the proper Christian life that's pleasing to God and spending eternity in hell, it is unequivocally my worst fear for my only child. I pray consistently for her safety and that I never have to be faced with that horrible tragedy. God is my everything, but she and her mom are next. I give my all to provide her the best life I can give her...things that I wasn't able to enjoy and do. I think I speak for all of us dads with that thought.

I hear you man.

It's tough. I have OCD already as it is. So I am a worrier by nature.

Having kids has heightened my sense of fear and anxiety because I am concerned so much for their safety. I drive my wife crazy sometimes with my safety concerns and over-the-top worry.

Also, It is part of my nightly routine to go around and check on my kids in bed. And I stand there and make sure they're breathing. And if "needed", adjust their sleeping position and/or their blankets' position because I can envision a blanket somehow covering their face and suffocating them.

When my new baby gets to her own room, that will be 4 I have to check their breathing status before going to bed. Ha.

But it's kind of cool also to sometimes just stare at them and reflect on how awesome they are and how awesome it is that God has allowed me to be a dad to them.

 

[Catbone]

Based on your VN persona, is it safe to say you're currently 13?

Just kidding - sorry for your loss.

Hahaha you think I'm bad now

 

[jspvol76]

I hear you man.

It's tough. I have OCD already as it is. So I am a worrier by nature.

Having kids has heightened my sense of fear and anxiety because I am concerned so much for their safety. I drive my wife crazy sometimes with my safety concerns and over-the-top worry.

Also, It is part of my nightly routine to go around and check on my kids in bed. And I stand there and make sure they're breathing. And if "needed", adjust their sleeping position and/or their blankets' position because I can envision a blanket somehow covering their face and suffocating them.

When my new baby gets to her own room, that will be 4 I have to check their breathing status before going to bed. Ha.

But it's kind of cool also to sometimes just stare at them and reflect on how awesome they are and how awesome it is that God has allowed me to be a dad to them.

I ain't got time for that. I tell them to get their butts in bed or Krampus will get them.

 

[RikidyBones]

I ain't got time for that. I tell them to get their butts in bed or Krampus will get them.

I actually learned about Krampus as a kid. Not kidding

 

[volssam]

I ain't got time for that. I tell them to get their butts in bed or Krampus will get them.

.

 

[OGbabyaviVol]

I hear you man.

It's tough. I have OCD already as it is. So I am a worrier by nature.

Having kids has heightened my sense of fear and anxiety because I am concerned so much for their safety. I drive my wife crazy sometimes with my safety concerns and over-the-top worry.

Also, It is part of my nightly routine to go around and check on my kids in bed. And I stand there and make sure they're breathing. And if "needed", adjust their sleeping position and/or their blankets' position because I can envision a blanket somehow covering their face and suffocating them.

When my new baby gets to her own room, that will be 4 I have to check their breathing status before going to bed. Ha.

But it's kind of cool also to sometimes just stare at them and reflect on how awesome they are and how awesome it is that God has allowed me to be a dad to them.

I have OCDisms as well. Have gotten better some over the years but still have my tendencies, so I completely understand where you are coming from. My girl is 5, and we still turn the monitor on so we can hear her call if she needs us. Her room is upstairs and ours is downstairs, so when it storms, I always worry about her being upstairs. If there is bad weather, we make a pallet in our closet and let her sleep there. I've had a lot of thoughts lately about what I would do if there was a fire, and how would I get to her. Hope I'm not the only one that thinks about these things so much.

 

[tn4elvis]

Lost my dad four months ago. Still get ready to pickup the phone and call him almost every day.

It's been over a year for me doing that.I use to call her on my way home from wk every evening.

 

[volssam]

I have OCDisms as well. Have gotten better some over the years but still have my tendencies, so I completely understand where you are coming from. My girl is 5, and we still turn the monitor on so we can hear her call if she needs us. Her room is upstairs and ours is downstairs, so when it storms, I always worry about her being upstairs. If there is bad weather, we make a pallet in our closet and let her sleep there. I've had a lot of thoughts lately about what I would do if there was a fire, and how would I get to her. Hope I'm not the only one that thinks about these things so much.

Oh, brother, you are not the only one.

Some scenarios I worry over (sometimes obsess over) and think about plans, if possible, on how to react to protect to my kids :

1) fire in the house
2) gunmen attacking at church.
3) bad guys breaking in at home
4) kids falling down the stairs
4) kids getting kidnapped or lost
5) gunman attacking my kids' school
6) kids drowning
7) kids suffocating
8) kids choking
9) kids falling and hitting their head/eye on something
10) kids getting molested
11) bobcats (ok, maybe some explanation on this one. Haha...one has been sighted in my neighborhood. And at night I go outside to pee in the backyard sometimes. And I wonder about if the bobcat is out there and could jump in the open door. And could get me first and then the kids would be vulnerable.)

I don't know what I'm gonna do when they start driving. And when my girls start wanting to date.

 

[BigZiti09]

Oh, brother, you are not the only one.

Some scenarios I worry over (sometimes obsess over) and think about plans, if possible, on how to react to protect to my kids :

1) fire in the house
2) gunmen attacking at church.
3) bad guys breaking in at home
4) kids falling down the stairs
4) kids getting kidnapped or lost
5) gunman attacking my kids' school
6) kids drowning
7) kids suffocating
8) kids choking
9) kids falling and hitting their head/eye on something
10) kids getting molested
11) bobcats (ok, maybe some explanation on this one. Haha...one has been sighted in my neighborhood. And at night I go outside to pee in the backyard sometimes. And I wonder about if the bobcat is out there and could jump in the open door. And could get me first and then the kids would be vulnerable.)

I don't know what I'm on a do when they start driving. And when my girls start wanting to date.

Matthew 6:25-34

I read it often when I fret over things I have no control over.

 

[RikidyBones]

Oh, brother, you are not the only one.

Some scenarios I worry over (sometimes obsess over) and think about plans, if possible, on how to react to protect to my kids :

1) fire in the house
2) gunmen attacking at church.
3) bad guys breaking in at home
4) kids falling down the stairs
4) kids getting kidnapped or lost
5) gunman attacking my kids' school
6) kids drowning
7) kids suffocating
8) kids choking
9) kids falling and hitting their head/eye on something
10) kids getting molested
11) bobcats (ok, maybe some explanation on this one. Haha...one has been sighted in my neighborhood. And at night I go outside to pee in the backyard sometimes. And I wonder about if the bobcat is out there and could jump in the open door. And could get me first and then the kids would be vulnerable.)

I don't know what I'm on a do when they start driving. And when my girls start wanting to date.

I noticed you didn't have Manbearpig on there...

 

[volssam]

Matthew 6:25-34

I read it often when I fret over things I have no control over.

Haha. Trust me. I know the verses quite well. And my parents tried to reinforce multiple times that I shouldn't worry about things.

I have had OCD since at least freshman year of high school (when I was diagnosed) but likely way before that. And worrying and over-analyzing became the norm for me. Not saying I should or that it's ok or that I don't try fight against it. Just saying it is one of my struggles.

 

[OGbabyaviVol]

Oh, brother, you are not the only one.

Some scenarios I worry over (sometimes obsess over) and think about plans, if possible, on how to react to protect to my kids :

1) fire in the house
2) gunmen attacking at church.
3) bad guys breaking in at home
4) kids falling down the stairs
4) kids getting kidnapped or lost
5) gunman attacking my kids' school
6) kids drowning
7) kids suffocating
8) kids choking
9) kids falling and hitting their head/eye on something
10) kids getting molested
11) bobcats (ok, maybe some explanation on this one. Haha...one has been sighted in my neighborhood. And at night I go outside to pee in the backyard sometimes. And I wonder about if the bobcat is out there and could jump in the open door. And could get me first and then the kids would be vulnerable.)

I don't know what I'm on a do when they start driving. And when my girls start wanting to date.

I think about 1,2,3,5 frequently. Also, I laughed hard when I read about the bobcat and stepping outside to pee sometimes at night. :lol:

I have really thought a lot about an attack at the church building, considering all of this ISIS stuff going on.

 

[OGbabyaviVol]

Matthew 6:25-34

I read it often when I fret over things I have no control over.

Very nice scripture! Love it, especially verse 33.

 

[Glitch]

It worries and scares me everyday that something might happen to my kids. I know I shouldn't be this way and should trust that God has a plan and has the foreknowledge to know what's best. But knowing these things and living free from the worry about it are hard for me.

My world would be shattered if something happened to my kids. Don't know if it could be repaired.

I have few nightmares but they are all of bad things happening to my children.

 

[jspvol76]

Oh, brother, you are not the only one.

Some scenarios I worry over (sometimes obsess over) and think about plans, if possible, on how to react to protect to my kids :

1) fire in the house
2) gunmen attacking at church.
3) bad guys breaking in at home
4) kids falling down the stairs
4) kids getting kidnapped or lost
5) gunman attacking my kids' school
6) kids drowning
7) kids suffocating
8) kids choking
9) kids falling and hitting their head/eye on something
10) kids getting molested
11) bobcats (ok, maybe some explanation on this one. Haha...one has been sighted in my neighborhood. And at night I go outside to pee in the backyard sometimes. And I wonder about if the bobcat is out there and could jump in the open door. And could get me first and then the kids would be vulnerable.)

I don't know what I'm on a do when they start driving. And when my girls start wanting to date.

2,5, and 10 get me. I sit in church sometimes and just start sweating thinking about what I would do.

As for the bobcats, don't need to worry about them. Being an outdoorsmen, I have been up close with many. I actually just filmed one at 20 yards this past weekend. They are skiddish, and normally aren't aggressive enough to attack a kid. They will most likely run away at the first sighting of a human. Now a pack of coyotes on the other hand....

 

[JacketVol]

Lost my dad in 2011 and still have a recording of his voice mail on my computer to listen to from time to time. Miss him so much. Gave me a love for sports and was there all the time when I played.

Lost my sister and saw my parents go thru losing the child and have dealt with it with friends. Love my kids and have had some pre thoughts of what to do to protect them in bad situations.

So sorry for the losses but to those who believe, we will see them again and we are living for the next life not just this one. Seeing some of you get real in here has been nice. We give each other a hard time at times but not only are we Vol fans but most are not just good but really good people. Prayers for those who are just now hurting and those who continue to hurt.