Well crap. Tiffany had an infection kick starting last night, bad pain, and fever. Got worse this morning, kidney related and possibly a stone, and went to her Dr. Her bloodwork was way off with her white blood cell count, so he sent her to the ER for iv treatment. Heart rate very high with the infection, so they admitted her. I haven't mentioned this, and wasn't really going to just because we don't know anything yet. But they did find a mass in her pelvic region the other day. Dr said it could be just infection, or scar tissue, even blood, but worse case being a tumor. She actually had an MRI scheduled for tomorrow, but her Dr is gonna have the hospital go ahead and do it. At least her parents helped with the kids until I left work, and they kept little bit for tonight. It sucks, can't be there with her, kinda puts my head in a bad place, but thankfully my heart knows where to turn. It's just me and Charity here, and it sucks seeing her worry because I am, but gotta stay positive for her. Just pray for her, and the girls. Just venting here, I always act lije a nut, and usually a big sunshine pumper, but her problems are always in the back of my mind. I mean I literally think every day that one of these days, her body isn't gonna be able to fight anymore. Some infection, flu, something will likely be the breaking point. I mean I know I could fall over now dead, but I do think all the time how hard it's gonna be for my girls to lose their momma, and me lose her. This is likely just another fight with infection, but not being able to be with her makes it worse this round. Charity started crying on the way home, and it literally took everything I had in me to not break down in front of her. I know these moments, I guess that's why my mind thinks of the "what if's". You guys just pray for her, them, even me. I'll be back acting like my normal crazy self in a little while. Gonna go to tge garage and pray and lift weights, get my head on straight.