I'm tired, struggling fighting sleep, thinking about everything. I'm a dummy, shouldn't have googled anything, but just got to wondering about what I should watch for. My heart hurts so much for her, and the kids, and I'm trying to be strong for all of them. I know I'm letting my mind get the best of me, but it hurts thinking about everything. Had to hold the kids crying the other night, and little bit saying momma's not going to make it to see me graduate. Idk, there's just moments it all gets to me, and I gotta ramble.