Thanks guys, I'm just getting a little stir crazy I suppose, boredom and recurring depression. Haven't stepped foot outside this house in almost a year. This will be the second school year I've had to sit out. No way to get there, I can't take my truck because three other people depend on it (granny has no nurses so Dad has to stay with her a lot, has to take my sister to school, etc.). I figured since I have so much free time I'd go ahead and start studying Japanese (something I've had a mind to do for a while), and I've been having a rough go of finding reliable (free) resources to learn from. Seems like every time I get it in my mind to do something, something out of my control prevents it.
VT, I'll give you the same advice I gave you 2-3 years ago. Get the **** away from your family. Time is not your friend. If you don't make a move, in 5 years you'll wake up one morning and realize you're repeating history. Fortune favors the bold. See a doc and get your anxiety/depression under control. Enroll in a school that has housing. Break the cycle.
it's been going on that long?
Hobo, if I wouldn't have left my family and local friends in Memphis at 18, I really don't think things would've worked out too well. Misery loves company and when people hold others back, which happens in many families and communities, it's nobody's fault except the person that allows it to happen to them. My brother is still in the spiral of funk that I left behind 20+ years ago.