I'm a regular RF lurker, not poster. Lately whenever I login it's a scroll looking for updates. In fact, whenever I think about checking in on VN....SaS is the first thought that follows and I'll say a quick prayer and start scrolling. I hate this update. I just don;t want to accept it. I'll continue to say prayers and continue to watch for that positive update. Hang in there SweetasSoda...come back in here soon. Please Lord guide those hand caring for her and hold her family in peace and comfort through this....amen.