Rest In Peace

Feeling completely numb.
My mom just died.
She was one month shy of her 90th birthday and had been in poor health for some time.
She had just started dialysis and just yesterday had pulled her feeding tube out.
I will be heading to South Florida for her service and keeping track of the storm in the Caribbean.
So sorry to hear this man. We're definitely praying for you and your family.
 
Its fine, her dad passed quickly in 2001, my mom in 2014 and her mom last year. Enjoy them while you can.
It’s a very unfortunate truth for our age. I’m sorry for you and GVG both. I enjoy them, wonder WTF is going on a lot and remember they remind me of my grandparents and then remember the alternative.
 
If not for my mom, I think losing my father would have done me in. He and I, we both had cirrhosis. His age and his health disqualified him from the transplant list. I had to survive to take care of her more than anything. I think that's part of what pulled me through it all. I know a day will come when it's her time, but I have no idea how I'll survive it.
It will be hard but yur a survivor.
 
Feeling completely numb.
My mom just died.
She was one month shy of her 90th birthday and had been in poor health for some time.
She had just started dialysis and just yesterday had pulled her feeding tube out.
I will be heading to South Florida for her service and keeping track of the storm in the Caribbean.
How are you doing? I can’t imagine and to be honest don’t want to. Hope your well.
 
How are you doing? I can’t imagine and to be honest don’t want to. Hope your well.
It’s been a week now. Roller coaster ride of feelings and thoughts.
I feel sad that she is gone but also feel glad that she is no longer suffering. She sounded so down the last few weeks.
I asked her a couple of months ago if she was afraid of death. She said that the thought was very frightening to her. Shortly afterwards, she told me that she wanted to throw in the towel.
She knew that getting better was not in her future.
I have been fortunate to have good friends that have kept in touch and also those here in VolNation who posted their kind words. I am very grateful and appreciative to all.

I was working on Wednesday and had a 15 minute window between a Zoom call and a webinar. I started to dial her telephone number and it hit me hard. I miss her.
I made an effort to remember all of the good times I had shared with her and the many funny times when she made me laugh. That made my mood better.
I will be heading to Kendall soon for the service. I’m glad I am heading down there in a better frame of mind.
Thank you for checking on me.
 
It’s been a week now. Roller coaster ride of feelings and thoughts.
I feel sad that she is gone but also feel glad that she is no longer suffering. She sounded so down the last few weeks.
I asked her a couple of months ago if she was afraid of death. She said that the thought was very frightening to her. Shortly afterwards, she told me that she wanted to throw in the towel.
She knew that getting better was not in her future.
I have been fortunate to have good friends that have kept in touch and also those here in VolNation who posted their kind words. I am very grateful and appreciative to all.

I was working on Wednesday and had a 15 minute window between a Zoom call and a webinar. I started to dial her telephone number and it hit me hard. I miss her.
I made an effort to remember all of the good times I had shared with her and the many funny times when she made me laugh. That made my mood better.
I will be heading to Kendall soon for the service. I’m glad I am heading down there in a better frame of mind.
Thank you for checking on me.
Tifwiw....

I used to know that every morning on my birthday between 6 -6:30 am I would get a phone call from my mom. Every single one. Sometimes the call was at an "inconvenient" time, but the call came.

I lost her on the 29th of October. Thanksgiving, Christmas, NY, her birthday Jan 18, then Mother's day all came and I'd miss her.

But June 9th.

It didn't hit me until later that morning, but when it did, it was something I can't explain, and won't try to.

Maybe I'm the only one so selfish to not put it all together until that first birthday without her phone call, but it was a special day for her, most likely the most special of all days. We were one at one time. I thought about it being the early 60's and how much different it was then and how she, like most all mom's with child, loved us more than anything in the world, before we were even born. I thought about the times I didn't answer the phone when I knew it was her.....I felt many feelings, guilt included.

Anyway, I've cried pretty much the whole time I've typed this. Wish I'd thought about all that before she passed away.
 
Tifwiw....

I used to know that every morning on my birthday between 6 -6:30 am I would get a phone call from my mom. Every single one. Sometimes the call was at an "inconvenient" time, but the call came.

I lost her on the 29th of October. Thanksgiving, Christmas, NY, her birthday Jan 18, then Mother's day all came and I'd miss her.

But June 9th.

It didn't hit me until later that morning, but when it did, it was something I can't explain, and won't try to.

Maybe I'm the only one so selfish to not put it all together until that first birthday without her phone call, but it was a special day for her, most likely the most special of all days. We were one at one time. I thought about it being the early 60's and how much different it was then and how she, like most all mom's with child, loved us more than anything in the world, before we were even born. I thought about the times I didn't answer the phone when I knew it was her.....I felt many feelings, guilt included.

Anyway, I've cried pretty much the whole time I've typed this. Wish I'd thought about all that before she passed away.
I’m sad to read this. There will always be something you think of that you should’ve said or done when you lose someone but didn’t. I think of stuff every day I wish I had’ve said or done or stuff I wish I didn’t say or do with my wife, daughter and parents but then I have to think of good times like graduations or Christmas or vacations so I don’t cry all the time. At the very least I was with my wife when she went to heaven. God bless you my friend.
 

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