Hang in there buddy it will get better. KEEP THE FAITH! Lost my Vol fan dad in 87 to brain cancer, my mom Vol fan in 2007 to breast cancer my brother , best friend and Vol fan a little over a year ago, stroke. I always ask God and continue for strength to deal with the losses or anything and know he will. I also know your dad would not want you down on earth suffering for him. Pay your respects and keep him in your heart and believe me he will be with you at those Vol games. I recall when my brother passed, my neighbors came by to tell me they were sorry, They had lost a son s few years back. Respectfully none of my losses are even close to the loss of a child and I pray that never happens, nor my wife for that fact.