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[Drewbydoo]

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Just showed this to my best friend Jason. He read it and said, "Yup, this guy actually gets it". Nice.

 

[Drewbydoo]

I see no way WTOB doesn’t have his every password ever handwritten on post-its and scotch taped to his computer monitor frame.

I predict that you are correct having seen many of my friend's parents computers. It makes me laugh at how similar their passwords are or the patterns of them anyway.

 

[chuckiepoo]

I cried in 7th grade when my dog died and haven't been able to shed a tear of any kind over anything until last week. For years I could feel my tear glands trying to cry, but nothing ever came out. 8 years is a long time to not cry and was a very clarifying thing for me personally. Now in the past couple of weeks I can at least tear up over things and I feel like less of a robot.

In 10th grade, on a Thursday night, my best friend Jason who lives about 70 yards away, went home around 10 pm. Then he came back, no big deal.

He went home and was going to hang himself in his dad's parking space in the garage and as he was about to do so, he thought, "Rather than Drew seeing lights and stuff at from parents house, he thought he tell me first".

So he did. Very matter of factly like it was no big deal. I'm not one to yell or scream at anyone in anger, but I lost it on him. He asked me not to tell my Mom for about a half hour. smh He honestly thought I'd let him do it. I punched him as hard as I could and I ended up yelling at him so my Mom would here me. (no yelling in anger, in her house), I told him he's such an ******* and selfish and that he could "Check in any time you like, but you can never leave" (Eagles reference. ) Then I grabbed a pair of hand cuffs I had in my desk drawer and hand cuffed myself to him, and told "Now go ahead try and leave, ya jack ass"

I remember being so mad and hurt.

What amazed me was that obviously had this on his mind for a while and I didn't have a clue.

BTW his mom had moved to Cali with zero warning. Went on a business trip and informed him and his dad later. His dad was and is a violent alcoholic who was gone all week, every week and was someone to avoid when he came home on the weekend, so Jason would go weeks without even seeing his dad. Jason said he decided to do it to get back at his dad and not be a burden to me and my parents.

We took him to the hospital where he spent a couple of days. I went over to his house to see if he really had set up a way to hang himself and sure enough he did. On top of the ladder was a loaded revolver. smh

He was struggling with multiple panic attacks every night and was just sick of them, so he decided to just end it all.

Difficult days. So many in our culture struggle with depression.

 

[W.TN.Orange Blood]

Difficult days. So many in our culture struggle with depression.

That was another thing my wife had was depression. Took meds for
her condition. It's just sometimes she'd miss it or didn't take it. I wasn't
one to force her to do so. She was very hard headed. I wasn't her nurse
nor did she want me to force her to take meds for it.

 

[W.TN.Orange Blood]

I guess everyone has gone to bed? It's been awhile now

 

[W.TN.Orange Blood]

 

[Halph66]

 

[taylorvol]

It’s comforting to me to see you and OB share your grief here. I’m having a hard time still, dealing with my wife having taken her own life. Just before Halloween, 2020. We had voted together earlier in the day.

I’m so sorry. I can’t imagine the pain and grief.

 

[knoxvol52]

Ready for the avatar bet @chuckiepoo Dallas beats the Texans and you get this for 24 hours

 

[gnm53108]

It’s comforting to me to see you and OB share your grief here. I’m having a hard time still, dealing with my wife having taken her own life. Just before Halloween, 2020. We had voted together earlier in the day.

Prayers sent.

 

[Halph66]

It’s comforting to me to see you and OB share your grief here. I’m having a hard time still, dealing with my wife having taken her own life. Just before Halloween, 2020. We had voted together earlier in the day.

Cuckiepoo, I cannot imagine having to try to make sense of that.
My Grandfather (Moms Dad) took his own life when I was in 6th grade. It was the first death that I had to come to grips with at that young age. My Mom is still bitter to this day.
To all that have scares of this nature, Stay Strong. We'll support you when you need it.

 

[VolGirl81]

I'm alone these days. I'm a widower now. My wife passed away back in April this year.

WTNOB, I totally missed this post. I’m so sorry. I knew she was had been ill, and was in a nursing home. Hang in there, as a cliche as that sounds. My heart aches for you,

 

[VolGirl81]

It’s comforting to me to see you and OB share your grief here. I’m having a hard time still, dealing with my wife having taken her own life. Just before Halloween, 2020. We had voted together earlier in the day.

Oh my gosh! Chuckiepoo, another post I missed. Im so sorry, I can’t imagine your pain. I send you heartfelt prayers for comfort and strength.

 

[W.TN.Orange Blood]

WTNOB, I totally missed this post. I’m so sorry. I knew she was had been ill, and was in a nursing home. Hang in there, as a cliche as that sounds. My heart aches for you,

Thank you so much. This post is very much appreciated.

 

[cobbwebb0710]

Four years huh? So sorry to hear that. Mine passed away from the 3 strokes she had a year ago in Sept. She stayed in & out of the Jackson hospital for weeks then.
She was in the hospital all month long in March & I thought she was a goner then.
She was released back to a nursing home facility where she passed on April 10th.

Dang OB! My condolences bud, I’m so sorry to hear this!

 

[chuckiepoo]

Ready for the avatar bet @chuckiepoo Dallas beats the Texans and you get this for 24 hours

Why the hell not? It's a bet! I have one in mind for you already!

 

[cobbwebb0710]

It’s comforting to me to see you and OB share your grief here. I’m having a hard time still, dealing with my wife having taken her own life. Just before Halloween, 2020. We had voted together earlier in the day.

Guys, this may not be the place for this and it may not be exactly what you believe in, but I don’t care and I’m going to put this out there anyway...
I’ve been talking to God a lot more than I ever have and I make it a point to do so.
Though we have never met, you guys mean a lot to me and I truly will continue to think about you guys in my talks.

 

[chuckiepoo]

Oh my gosh! Chuckiepoo, another post I missed. Im so sorry, I can’t imagine your pain. I send you heartfelt prayers for comfort and strength.

Thank you, Sister. Whole board grew and got a little closer yesterday afternoon. I'm grateful that you shared prayer.

 

[cobbwebb0710]

Thank you, Sister. Whole board grew and got a little closer yesterday afternoon. I'm grateful that you shared prayer.

I hate that I missed out.
Been really busy getting things in order for the next guy/girl to take over my route.

 

[chuckiepoo]

Cuckiepoo, I cannot imagine having to try to make sense of that.
My Grandfather (Moms Dad) took his own life when I was in 6th grade. It was the first death that I had to come to grips with at that young age. My Mom is still bitter to this day.
To all that have scares of this nature, Stay Strong. We'll support you when you need it.

Your calls for Prayer Warriors to support Grayson Pope meant alot to me. Thank you for letting your guard down and sharing about your Grandpa.

 

[chuckiepoo]

I hate that I missed out.
Been really busy getting things in order for the next guy/girl to take over my route.

In Spirit my man, In Spirit!

 

[W.TN.Orange Blood]

Dang OB! My condolences bud, I’m so sorry to hear this!

Thanks, @cobbwebb0710 .... I thought of you & knew you'd like to hear the update.
It was a long hard ride for the 7 months she hung on to life. She was at a point where
she could't communicate & was basically on life support. There was no words btw us
& her two twin boys B4 she died at 8 pm on April 10th. I got a call that night from Hospice with the news she had passed on. We had talked & made plans about this situation long ago of what to do if one goes B4 the other. She wanted to be cremated.

 

[Drewbydoo]

@chuckiepoo

I knew of Jason's panic attacks, but didn't know how frequent they were and one way he kept them from happening was to sleep with or be with me. Up to that point we had every class together, spent almost all our free time together. Our back door is never locked so there were many nights he went home and I'd go to sleep and he'd return to sleep with me. Some nights I woke up and some nights I didn't. If I woke up, he'd want me to hold his hand or hold him tightly.

Difficult days. So many in our culture struggle with depression.

You know what his dad told him about his panic attacks, "to man up and get over it".

Continued: For a year prior he'd come in through our back door which was never locked, plus he had the key code to get in our house. If he caught on to the pre panic attack signs he'd climb in my bed, wake me up and ask me to hold him or hold his hand, or put his ankle over or under mine. He just needed some form of contact, the more the better. I remember thinking that I liked it that he found some level of peace and lower anxiety just by having some contact with me.

After his suicide attempt, he moved in with us. My mom prepared the guest room for him, but he asked me if he could move into my room with me and sleep with me. About a year later I asked my parents if we could adopt him and they told me that they had already talked about it and were wondering how to approach me with that.

The "club" aspect of having a group people who support each other is something I have had with my 3 closest friends and the shared practices, discussions and activities has been who we are for years. In 9th grade the four of us decided we'd work hard to go to college together and hopefully work at the same company after college. It's worked out that we can kinda/sorta work and go to college together. In the interim, we worked for Rob at his own landscape company that he started when he was 14. Rob needed the money, the rest of us didn't, so he didn't need to pay us. He invested the money he saved right back into his company and with a few full time employees now, it just kinda runs itself giving him a steady income while he's at college.

The power of the above is shocking. Marc was tasked with the "activity" ie chore of having to paint his garage over the course of one summer. The four of us knocked it out in a day and painted the ceiling AND installed additional shelving and pull down stairs to the attic above the garage which used to require a ladder. The point being is if one of has a chore to do, let's not just do it, but knock it outta the park with the result, expand the scope and over achieve and do so in a joyful, fun way that elevates others and ourselves.

 

[W.TN.Orange Blood]