Needing prayers.

[Orangeslice13]

The G-d of my father’s is the ancient of days. The creator of all things. He created this day that you may find peace and joy. I ask today for nothing as my blessing at his hands are beyond what I deserve. My problems I give to YHWH to handle as they may be too much for me. I will strive today to leave them with Him as He needs no help from me in carrying them. For you all, my imaginary friends, who I often lean on more than you realize, I ask that He provide you with the peace that passes beyond understanding as you take on this day. May blessings and love follow your and every step you take.
This I humbly request in the name of YHWH and Yeshua whom he sent to redeem us all.

Shalom Y’all

 

[Orangeslice13]

@Grand Vol
You’re on my mind. When that happens I pray for that person.
Hope you are doing well.

 

[VolNExile]

I bought my mom Butter Pecan flavor ensure (her favorite ice cream) and just knew that was gonna be what she'd drink. She smiled when she saw it, then made a face when she tasted it. I said, "Oh, not good?". And she just shook her head.

Sometimes these have a kind of metallic? -something taste.

But that’s an idea. Maybe I could blend some butter pecan ice cream with vanilla Ensure.

 

[Vjcvette]

I had my MOHR’s surgery Thursday. It took over 9 hours with mostly waiting in between surgeries. After about 7 hours, they took me back again for another surgery, because they didn’t get it all. My son and I were tired. I told the surgeon to do whatever she needed to do to get it all, because i was done with it all. I might have lied and didn’t tell her when I could feel pain, thankfully not as bad as the actual…….


Second time was worse, but I didn’t care. If you’re squeamish., look away. She had to dig underneath the roots and do whatever. I don’t look like a beauty queen on my left side of my face now, but I’ll take it. My son told me I’m stubborn and the strongest person he knows. I’ll take it. Anytime, your children look up to you, you take it. If my typing is off, I can’t blame it on alcohol this time. My left eye is swollen shut. Thank you all for the prayers. They make the difference as evident in SaS situation.

Praying that you have a quick recovery @Orangeredblooded

 

[Vjcvette]

My mom is starting to slide on down. We’re having a hard time getting her to get up and leave her room. At least half of her nourishment comes from Ensure (when she drinks it.) I’ve asked them to reduce some of her meds and add an antidepressant (also stimulates appetite), but it will be a few more weeks before any expected changes happen.

She’s 96, will be 97 in September. They’re considering putting her back on hospice.

Oh, it is hard when seeing your parents getting up in age and you can't fix everything for them but am praying for your Mother.

 

[Vol since 77]

Appreciate prayers as I undergo a 2nd procedure on my elbow tomorrow morning at 5:15. I'm not looking forward to it as I'm just now getting relief from the pain from the 1st surgery (approx. 5 months ago). Surgeon will do an "elbow manipulation with the option of opening me back up, only if necessary".

As always, I continue praying for everyone here

 

[joevol33]

Appreciate prayers as I undergo a 2nd procedure on my elbow tomorrow morning at 5:15. I'm not looking forward to it as I'm just now getting relief from the pain from the 1st surgery (approx. 5 months ago). Surgeon will do an "elbow manipulation with the option of opening me back up, only if necessary".

As always, I continue praying for everyone here

We'll be praying for you

 

[Tin Man]

Appreciate prayers as I undergo a 2nd procedure on my elbow tomorrow morning at 5:15. I'm not looking forward to it as I'm just now getting relief from the pain from the 1st surgery (approx. 5 months ago). Surgeon will do an "elbow manipulation with the option of opening me back up, only if necessary".

As always, I continue praying for everyone here

Oh, joy. Oh great, great, joy. Sympathies.

 

[hmanvolfan]

Well, it’s something (calories, protein, etc.) But I doubt that she’s ever finished a can.

I bring her food I’ve cooked for her, and she exclaims and all, but picks at it and doesn’t finish. Thus the antidepressant/ appetite stimulant.

If she likes cinnamon buns Premier Protein has a cinnamon bun flavor that’s purty good.

 

[hmanvolfan]

I look forward to just a scar. You know how it is, they left a minuscule part open and not to be be scared at seeing it for the first time . Yea, it sucked and glad it’s over with. I just wished I could go back and kick that 20 something year old a$$, but I’m afraid she would beat my old a$$. How is your mom?
I’m sorry I’ve not been in here much in a, I think a year? Or something. There were somethings that bothered me about some posting (I guess change happens). I just I was just being me and won’t go into it. It’s great to see you Donna.

 

[Vol since 77]

Appreciate prayers as I undergo a 2nd procedure on my elbow tomorrow morning at 5:15. I'm not looking forward to it as I'm just now getting relief from the pain from the 1st surgery (approx. 5 months ago). Surgeon will do an "elbow manipulation with the option of opening me back up, only if necessary".

As always, I continue praying for everyone here

Ughhhh, surgeon office just called and bumped me to Thursday due to insurance not approving the procedure yet. Hopefully it'll be worked out by then

 

[ArdentVol]

Ughhhh, surgeon office just called and bumped me to Thursday due to insurance not approving the procedure yet. Hopefully it'll be worked out by then

I alsomedical take a hard look at the ways patients arent getting the care they need at proper time. Same goes for all the BS that they impose on pharmacies and many doctors

 

[Orangeslice13]

Last time I went to therapy the dr made a comment on something small. I picked at it and the damn broke. I stuffed it all back in and duct taped myself back together. Held my **** together for a week visiting my brother in New York. So now I’m home and I was thinking, let’s go to therapy again today. It’s been awesome so far”.

This should be a blast

 

[Vol since 77]

Last time I went to therapy the dr made a comment on something small. I picked at it and the damn broke. I stuffed it all back in and duct taped myself back together. Held my **** together for a week visiting my brother in New York. So now I’m home and I was thinking, let’s go to therapy again today. It’s been awesome so far”.

This should be a blast

Praying for you

 

[VolNExile]

Last time I went to therapy the dr made a comment on something small. I picked at it and the damn broke. I stuffed it all back in and duct taped myself back together. Held my **** together for a week visiting my brother in New York. So now I’m home and I was thinking, let’s go to therapy again today. It’s been awesome so far”.

This should be a blast

Rip off the duct tape and keep healing. Thinking of you and of your sainted Red Woman.

 

[Orangeslice13]

Rip off the duct tape and keep healing. Thinking of you and of your sainted Red Woman.

 

[Vol since 77]

My last go around with TOA. They've scheduled me twice for surgery this week, only to cancel late both days, after I notify my employer. If you need orthopedic treatment in middle Tennessee, I advise Elite Ortho (past experience was outstanding) or Vanderbilt Ortho. The "surgery scheduler" then proceeded to be rude and blame the insurance company, hospital, etc. If her rude a$$ wouldn't schedule surgeries before getting approval from insurance, none of this would've taken place. I let her know yesterday that I'm in control now since she can't get her together and they are to wait until approval, contact me so I can schedule therapy for the following day (which doc told me was imperative within 24 hours of procedure) and then I'll decide when the surgery will take place. I'll never set foot in another TOA the rest of my life due to this and that's a shame because the surgeon was really good, but everything else is the worst experience I've ever had. They need a major overhaul in office staff and how they operate.

Apologies for the rant, sometimes I wonder how some people even get dressed and make it to work.

 

[Orangeslice13]

Me this morning.

 

[Orangeslice13]

Not in a great place.

 

[Tin Man]

Not in a great place.

Get your mind right.

 

[joevol33]

Not in a great place.

Praying for you.

 

[VolNExile]

@Orangeslice13 Heard this on the car radio this afternoon and it reminded me of you two. Hope you’re having a few breaks in the darkness.

 

[Orangeslice13]

@Orangeslice13 Heard this on the car radio this afternoon and it reminded me of you two. Hope you’re having a few breaks in the darkness.

Thanks Exie. I listened twice. You know I love bluegrass and similar music but right now I’m feeling angry.
This has been played on my phone at least 100 times in the last few weeks.

 

[ArdentVol]

Thanks Exie. I listened twice. You know I love bluegrass and similar music but right now I’m feeling angry.
This has been played on my phone at least 100 times in the last few weeks.

Grandaddy Return to Merge Bluegrass and New Wave on New Song 'Watercooler'

Grandaddy return from an over half-decade recording hiatus with "Watercooler," the first single from the indie rockers’ upcoming album 'Blu Wav.'

www.rollingstone.com

@VolNExile

 

[Orangeslice13]

Fair warning…..
You might not want to read this.



I watched the tv show baby deer a while back about the same time I lost my father. That’s where red noticed the seems beginning to fall apart. I was a pretty good athlete as a child. When I was 11 I was left alone with and molested by a baseball coach. It was ugly. I did not comply with the coach the way he wanted and was afraid for my life. He told me that it was my fault….that I wanted it…..that I lead him on….nobody would believe me if I said anything…..and he’d kill me if I said anything about it. It was after the season and I never saw him again. A couple months back I looked him up….to kill him….but he’s already dead. All those years later I let that RT have her way with me. I remember thinking at that time that all I am is trash and that people just take what they want. I have no idea why I held it together for so long just to fall apart decades later. I do not know if I’ll ever be ok. There’s so much going on ….abandonment issues. Self worth issues. Anger. Sadness. And the ugly side of me is strong. If G-d had not blessed me with my woman all those years ago I’m confident I’d be dead or in jail by now. Even now her love, grace and patience is beyond belief. She is truly my anchor and guardian angel. The worst part is I really enjoy picking at people that hate me. I really go after the anti semites. The more I can make them hate me the better I feel. That’s a behavior I once enjoyed for everyone on this board. If I could cause someone to melt down I found joy in it. That’s a disgusting behavior. That’s not who I want to be. I don’t understand how I can be so happy with my life. My marriage, my children, my work life, my home life, my family….(except that Fing bitch SIL) everything is great. I have nothing to complain about…..nothing to be sad about…..so many people have it so much worse…..yet I’m in so much pain. Therapy has made it so much worse, I remember everything!!!
I don’t want to remember anything anymore. Not a great place for a recovering alcoholic. It could be worse, at least I’m not a danger to myself or others. The people who hurt me are both dead already. So on we go. Next Visit to Dr M is Tuesday. I’ve already told her how much I don’t like her and don’t enjoy our visits. She said “that’s ok. I’m glad to see you and glad you’re here”. She actually thinks I’m very well adjusted and well on my way to peace. I’m not sure she’s really paying attention cause that’s not what I see.

If you happen to think of my mentality weak fragile ass when you are done praying, maybe include my in the P.S.

Out