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Joining the “church on two wheels” ride in a few minutes. Just lost a cycling club member to cancer, and his family members want to ride with the club this morning. My recent diagnosis of yet another skin cancer means MOHS surgery, soon. This morning, I’m in the right frame of mind to ride with surviving family members. Peace.
 
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Tin Man said:
Joining the “church on two wheels” ride in a few minutes. Just lost a cycling club member to cancer, and his family members want to ride with the club this morning. My recent diagnosis of yet another skin cancer means MOHS surgery, soon. This morning, I’m in the right frame of mind to ride with surviving family members. Peace.
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God bless.
 
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Orangeslice13 said:
Fair warning…..
You might not want to read this.



I watched the tv show baby deer a while back about the same time I lost my father. That’s where red noticed the seems beginning to fall apart. I was a pretty good athlete as a child. When I was 11 I was left alone with and molested by a baseball coach. It was ugly. I did not comply with the coach the way he wanted and was afraid for my life. He told me that it was my fault….that I wanted it…..that I lead him on….nobody would believe me if I said anything…..and he’d kill me if I said anything about it. It was after the season and I never saw him again. A couple months back I looked him up….to kill him….but he’s already dead. All those years later I let that RT have her way with me. I remember thinking at that time that all I am is trash and that people just take what they want. I have no idea why I held it together for so long just to fall apart decades later. I do not know if I’ll ever be ok. There’s so much going on ….abandonment issues. Self worth issues. Anger. Sadness. And the ugly side of me is strong. If G-d had not blessed me with my woman all those years ago I’m confident I’d be dead or in jail by now. Even now her love, grace and patience is beyond belief. She is truly my anchor and guardian angel. The worst part is I really enjoy picking at people that hate me. I really go after the anti semites. The more I can make them hate me the better I feel. That’s a behavior I once enjoyed for everyone on this board. If I could cause someone to melt down I found joy in it. That’s a disgusting behavior. That’s not who I want to be. I don’t understand how I can be so happy with my life. My marriage, my children, my work life, my home life, my family….(except that Fing bitch SIL) everything is great. I have nothing to complain about…..nothing to be sad about…..so many people have it so much worse…..yet I’m in so much pain. Therapy has made it so much worse, I remember everything!!!
I don’t want to remember anything anymore. Not a great place for a recovering alcoholic. It could be worse, at least I’m not a danger to myself or others. The people who hurt me are both dead already. So on we go. Next Visit to Dr M is Tuesday. I’ve already told her how much I don’t like her and don’t enjoy our visits. She said “that’s ok. I’m glad to see you and glad you’re here”. She actually thinks I’m very well adjusted and well on my way to peace. I’m not sure she’s really paying attention cause that’s not what I see.

If you happen to think of my mentality weak fragile ass when you are done praying, maybe include my in the P.S.

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will be thinking about you. it happened when i was 12
 
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A little biblical help.....
Philippians 3:13Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
14I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.

4:8¶Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

Isaiah 26:3 KJV — Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.

We must choose to think on good things and not dwell on the bad. I know that's easier said than done but it can be done. I too have suffered abuse as a child and when I dwell on it, it drives me crazy.
If we keep our minds and conversation on things above and the work God has for us here, I truly believe it can be done.
Anyhow, I certainly am praying for you and I hope somehow you get some help with this little offering.
 
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Orangeslice13 said:
@Pennheel
How you living today?
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Hey,I'm actually doing really well. I received prayer at church last Sunday for my depression. I felt the Lord laid it on me,and I would regret it if I didn't. Ever since,I felt a huge weight lifted off me and feeling much more confident and happy. That,and I started a new anxiety medication earlier this week called Rexulti that others have noticed a big change in my personality for the better. Things are going well, and I'm blessed. 🙏 Thanks for asking!!

I'll continue to keep you in my prayers!!
 
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Mrs AV fainted Friday night about 4 hrs after we arrived in Fort Morgan and was taken by ambulance to the ER in Foley, AL,

24 hours latee
our grandson Dylan begfan throwing upand continued with dry heaves all night, His mom, a doctor, took him a nearby clinic thaet said their policy was to NOT
give chikdren his age an IV, and his mom had to go to a second clinic be be treated.

Bottom line both seem to be OK, The Mrs is bruisedm ,limpiing with a knot on her head. Various tests, includibg MRI showed no cause and she was released after 4 hrs/

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ArdentVol said:
Mrs AV fainted Friday night about 4 hrs after we arrived in Fort Morgan and was taken by ambulance to the ER in Foley, AL,

24 hours latee
our grandson Dylan begfan throwing upand continued with dry heaves all night, His mom, a doctor, took him a nearby clinic thaet said their policy was to NOT
give chikdren his age an IV, and his mom had to go to a second clinic be be treated.

Bottom line both seem to be OK, The Mrs is bruisedm ,limpiing with a knot on her head. Various tests, includibg MRI showed no cause and she was released after 4 hrs/

More details later
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My goodness. Praying for all of you.
 
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ArdentVol said:
Mrs AV fainted Friday night about 4 hrs after we arrived in Fort Morgan and was taken by ambulance to the ER in Foley, AL,

24 hours latee
our grandson Dylan begfan throwing upand continued with dry heaves all night, His mom, a doctor, took him a nearby clinic thaet said their policy was to NOT
give chikdren his age an IV, and his mom had to go to a second clinic be be treated.

Bottom line both seem to be OK, The Mrs is bruisedm ,limpiing with a knot on her head. Various tests, includibg MRI showed no cause and she was released after 4 hrs/

More details later
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Yikes! I hope everyone continues to recover well. This heat can't help. Praying for all y'all and a much better week.
 
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ArdentVol said:
laptop at 0 powerr, All seems OK. Mrs AV is still asleep
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all adults are up, mrs AV doing most of talking. dylan hasnt budged.

mrs av is still in agatha christie -- what happened -- mode. swelling in anknee and knee decreasing. knot on head isnt as bad,

she had ppd a doc vist for beach trip and will undergo various heart tests when back home. dylan gifted us a PWM, perpetual washing machine, and ive been reading a chuck berry bio.
Later
 
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dylan out of bed b4 noon. resting on couch watching pokemon
mrs av uncomfortable any time she steps outside the shaded porch


no one saw her fall but we did heard a thump; she had been sitting on bar stool and I was fooling around at kitchen sink when she fell. I thought one of the kids had done sumpin. Hallie, 3, asked what happened to you and mrs said I fainted

;like on peppa pig, hallie asked.

we had to call 911, because there was no one to get mrs down stairs[ fire dept medics were great
ER in Foley was a horror story
 
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ArdentVol said:
dylan out of bed b4 noon. resting on couch watching pokemon
mrs av uncomfortable any time she steps outside the shaded porch


no one saw her fall but we did heard a thump; she had been sitting on bar stool and I was fooling around at kitchen sink when she fell. I thought one of the kids had done sumpin. Hallie, 3, asked what happened to you and mrs said I fainted

;like on peppa pig, hallie asked.

we had to call 911, because there was no one to get mrs down stairs[ fire dept medics were great
ER in Foley was a horror story
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Ugh, an ER visit on vacation. Ugh, ugh, ugh. Sorry about the bumps and bruises, but I'm glad she's doing better.

+1,000,000 about stepping out from the shaded porch
 
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VolNExile said:
Ugh, an ER visit on vacation. Ugh, ugh, ugh. Sorry about the bumps and bruises, but I'm glad she's doing better.

+1,000,000 about stepping out from the shaded porch
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All adults were all-in on ER visit,, Mrs AV said shewanted to be sure there would be no sirens. Anything from alarming the little guys. DIL began in child and adolescent pyschiatry and has been a godsend. No one from family allowed to stay w/ her in ambulance .Son and I followed minutes later and when we arrived there was no report of mrs being admitted. Finally located her, and room was awful. Basically a storeroom for gloves, with no indication it had a recent c;leaning. We spent about 4 hrs there and we all had to hoof it to get to car/

FWI, Dylan has moved to new couch and has ben able to eat. Tylenol usually zaps him into him gear, Says he still feels very weak
 
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dylan and i spent close to hour in pool in late afternoon, but he's back inside,and kinda grouchy/

we compared our exploits (ands lack of mine) as we discussed what we liked to do in first grade. We agreed our tennis games were better when we served.

we are wondering if chlorine level in pool has affected him, We know it can cause nusea, and wore a black T in pool saturday that turned purple. Last night my vision ws extremely affected
 
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