You and I are very similar. I always want to fight in fight to flight situations and can't stand injustice and people doing the wrong thing and hurting people. Just do the right thing but I need to change. Today the sermon was to trust in him even in the valley and obey because that is when he does great things.
I'm working on it...but it is my greatest fault. My first instinct is to do like Peter...grab a sword and swing for their head...but then if I do that, then I am no better than the ones that killed Jesus.
What is already happening, and the even worse that is soon coming is the greatest test I and everyone else that is a follower will ever face. I have to remind myself over and over and over every day what Jesus said.. "My kingdom is not of this world, if my kingdom were of this world, then would my servants fight that I should not be delivered to the Jews: but now is my Kingdom not from hence"
As you said..trusting and obeying is what has to be done...it HAS to be done, so I will just watch and pray.
I see people on every hand claiming to be followers and no doubt sincere in the belief that they are doing the right thing...and threatening vengeance, death and slaughter when he commanded us over and over not to fight that way.
"Fight the good fight of faith"...that is what we have to have the courage to do...to stand, watch and pray. There is no salvation for us in the weapons of this world...only the same awful damnation that is on this wicked, perverted, arrogantly degenerate blasphemous world.
I do not want to perish with them...I really don't want anybody to.
God...please help us all get through this.