I'm going to vent in the nervous/doubtful stage. Not being negative, but it's normal for your mind to think about all possibilities, even the bad. I see her every day, so I completely understand her wanting to do this. Heck, I would if I suffered like she does, but I also see the weakness in her body. I've also seen her almost due, so my mind wonders about the reality of how risky this is. That leads to questions of what if. What if it goes bad, and she doesn't make it? You have to deal with the outcome if it happens, as in getting her back home from out there. The biggest concern, the kids. Do you tell them something like that over the phone with nobody with them (family), or hop on a plane and wait? Then I worry about me, I think the protection mode of a dad would kick in, and keep me halfway calm until I get to them, but what if I do break down out there without them? Sorry, I'm just really nervous, and hate even saying any of that, but it's eating my brain and heart holding it. I don't want to talk to her about it, or anyone really, so I am here. It's not that I don't see miraculous things in this, it's just my human nature. It's risky, we both do understand that, and I do realize there is a chance I come home without her. I'm just going to cherish every second, and spoil her while I can, and hope I can look back and laugh at my fear.
. Anyway, my friend who lives out there, her and her husband are well off, and they own a car rental place. She told me anything I need at all to tell her, and if I want a car while we're there it's mine. I'm not going to of course, but just thought it was nice of both of them. It is a little nice having her out there, in case there was a situation. She's begged us to come visit for years, I'd say we'll be seeing her at some point. I do have a cousin fairly close in Arizona if needed also. Just made me smile at the one thinking about it, and letting her know we were coming.
