McGill, I pray for you, bro. Please don't let this thing bother you to that point. Be stronger as we all know you can.
I've never shared this before, so here goes. Last May on a nice warm day, my mom left to run 3 miles down the road to pick up a few groceries and a couple of birthday cards. She wasn't gone but about 30 min. total. There is an enclosed sun room on the end of the house beside her patio.
When she returned, my 83 yr old dad was sitting on the love seat in a slumped position with a pillow in front of his face. Mom, as she opened the door to the sunroom, called out "Bobby......Bobby, figuring he had fallen asleep. She sat the bags down and lifted the pillow and then saw the most horrible, traumatic sight imaginable....my dad had shot himself thru the head.
I never will forget the call I received from my mom, in total distress as I was driving between Cookeville and Sparta for work.
My dad was an Air Force vet, strong christian beliefs, set in his ways and before his health was gradually fading, was very self-reliant and always wanted to do everything himself, or at least try before calling a repairman. My mom nor none of my siblings could believe my dad would commit suicide.....but he did. He didn't leave a note or anything so I choose to believe that he gave up and was tired of increasingly becoming a burden, in his mind, to mom.
I appreciate ya'll allowing me to share this and hope it helps stoke all of us, me included, to be kind to our parents and loved ones, cherish them and keep an eye out for any "signs" of problems any of them may be dealing with.
